I think I think I THINK I’m getting a better handle on myself. I know I need to be comfortable with myself before I can find someone I’m comfortable with/who is comfortable with me. I feel ready but with my visitor coming timing is still off. Then once he leaves there’s only 3ish months until I graduate so timing will still be off. I’m more ok with this now though which makes me thing I’m getting closer to being a real person again. Now that finals are almost over too I think that that is helping.